I went out to watch "The Vow" thinking that I already knew the story just by watching the trailer.  Well, I was wrong.  Thus this post.  There was much to the story than what I thought I knew.  There were other plots that were intertwined to it.  A lot of emotions and A lot of really deep lines that are worth taking note of.  There were plenty of times that I cried, because somehow I could relate to it.   

I cried when Leo, played by Channing Tatum frustratingly told Paige, played by Rachel McAdams that he is also having a hard time with the situation that they have ; the time when Leo signed divorce papers because he already gave up on trying to make his wife fall in love with him; there was also a scene between Paige and her mother that I like.  They had this very sensitive argument on why they didn't tell her about his father's affair and why did her mother chose to stay with him despite that.  And her mother told her that she chose to stay for all the right things that he did for her.  She couldn't just leave her for one mistake.

Hmmm,  phewww... all the struggles of a couple.  It makes me appreciate that I'm single but it also makes me ponder what my married life will be like.  I hope I'll end up with a good man who doesn't want to leave me despite of my fun and sometimes eccentric nature.  

Right after I watched the trailer, I immediately thought that there's really something wrong with it.  I know that it has a lot of touchy scenes and really romantic ones too, but I really couldn't brush the fact that this girl couldn't seem to love her husband again.  I mean, if I was the girl and I just discovered that the person is my husband, of course I will program my mind that I'll be committed to that him and will love him no matter what.  But strangely that didn't happen.  What baffled me most was that the husband was no less than Channing Tatum, who is a complete hottie.  If I was her I would be ecstatic to know that this handsome and hot guy is my husband.  In fact I would marry him again if I want to.  

But yeah, my friend is asking me to go with her, so I figured whatever. I guess Channing Tatum is worth the movie ticket. :)

Valentine's Day is portrayed to be a very exciting day, well yes, for couples, but it's a dreaded day for singles like me.  I remembered one time, I hang out with girl friends at the beach on a valentines night.  It was cold then and my other friend who was supposed to bring the tent didn't make it, so we ended up trying to curl up to find some warmth.  Damn, that was a cold night indeed.  But yeah, it was a good idea gone bad.  So anyways I thought I would try to invite someone to go on a date with me, but really, am I that desperate? I think yes, to some degree because of the fact that I have even thought of that idea.  But yes, I guess I really should be saving my valentine's day for someone whom I love.  I mean, what's the use of dating a complete stranger on a valentine's day.  Well, yeah, for some people they do that, but I think I'd rather not.  So while surfing on youtube, I found this video about feeling gorgeous about oneself, and luckily enough, it gave me good ideas how I could just celebrate valentine's day by just loving myself.  And I thought, yeah, why not just do that instead. 

1. Wear Favorite Perfume

2. Wear that Cute Dress 

3. Light up some Scented Candles

4. Have a nice Bath

5. Slather on some Good amount of Lotion

6. Take a Lovely nap

7. Read a Good Book

8. Write on your Journal

9. Reconnect with your Dreams

10.Listen to Relaxing Music

11.Post on your Blog

12.Hang out with your Girl Friends

13.Watch an Uplifting Movie

14.Look at yourself in the Mirror for a Long Time, Study yourself

15.Reflect on Yourself, Hear out your Voice

16.Go back to your passions.

17.Rediscover your Childhood dreams; and Achieve it

18.Put make up on

19.Spend time with people who Genuinely care for you

20.Plan out your dreams

21.Have a nice Walk

22.Write yourself a Letter

23.Sing your Heart out

24.Dance Like there's No Tomorrow

25.Eat Good Food

I just came out from a breakup and I realized that I made it even harder for me because I had been digging my own wound rather than just help me heal it.  I watched romantic movies and listened to sad songs.  I still go back to old memories and still communicate with my ex who already has moved on.  It was hard, but now I learned from my mistakes.  I need to help myself and be kind to myself by giving myself time to heal and step back and just take it from a broader perspective rather than focusing on the pain.  

I thought that I could adjust everything for the guy and I could do everything for him, but really, it was disrespectful to me and to my dreams and aspirations in life.  I ignored me and focused on the relationship. It was so wrong.  At least I learned.

The thought of going vegetarian and embracing organic products have really enticed me for some time now.  I tried being vegetarian but somehow I haven't really acquired that tastebuds yet to fully dedicate myself to go vegan.  But using organic items are easier, I thought I'll start myself with that.  Organic products, in this case, beauty products aren't necessarily expensive.  Body shop has gone green but the prices are just not that attractive to me.  Good thing my sister introduced me to Human Nature.  It's locally made thus it's cheaper.  So far, it has gotten good reviews from her so I thought I might as well try it myself.  First product I bought is their Sunflower oil.  It has been said to minimize dark areas and stretchmarks in your body.  And seeing that it only cost P129, I bought it immediately.

Let's see if this thing works on me.

I have been contemplating for some time now.  I figured I have done this multiple times already but every single time I go back to myself, it feels like I'm always starting on a new slate.  Oddly enough, I still end up with the same direction.  So just now, I wonder why I want to head on to that way.  I want to make sure that it isn't something that I force myself into or something I do to brag to other people, but it should be something that I really dream of for myself.   And looking back... I feel that yes, I want to do this.  And yes, I want to experience it.  So only left to do now is just do it and just not question myself anymore.

There are a number of things that has changed in my life, however the transition wasn't really easy at all.  I made it hard for myself.  At least I learned a lot of things along the way.

I've gotten back to my diaries and read entries that dated 7 years ago until the current year and I figured my wishes didn't really change that much.  Ant I think that I really should be doing something about it.  And this year is just perfect as I don't have any restrictions anymore.  Realizing this... I feel happier and more empowered.