One thing with my mother, she somehow relates everything to her religion/belief.  That's how overly zealous she is with it.  I have nothing against it though.  It's what makes her who she is, and because of that my siblings and I grew fairly well, even if we aren't as zealous like her, we are well in our status.  

Just seconds ago, she forgot to pay her bills.  Cursing and hissing and shorty she said..."My God, why have you forsaken me.".  I was taken aback and said "Shhhtt", my mind was running at this point.  Now is she thinking that she's Jesus or something.  Like really mother, blaming God for forgetting something.  Leave Him alone.  He already sacrificed his Son for you, what more do you need.  Seriously.  

Now she's just a meter away from me while she's busy filing something on the bed.  

Citing this incident makes me remember one time, I was in highschool and was complaining about something and she said stop complaining but instead be thankful, facing the huge window with arms wide open as if the sunlight is like heaven, ready to suck her in it and deliver her to heaven.  Hmmm... really mother.

I know. I know. You've got a point.  But what's up with this overly theatrical reactions? 

We love you nevertheless. :)

Whenever I'm in the mood of eating something cold, first thing on my mind is Ice Giants.  They just serve the most delish ice cream concuction ever.  They don't go overboard with the sweetness because the thin, fine, crushed ice bath with creamy milk just neutralizes everything.

Now people.  It's time to indulge. 

I feel happier these days.  And I must pat myself for it.  It was a conscious effort on my part. What I just started to do was just doing things I wanted to do, buying things I wanted to get, and falling for each and every thing that I love.  I just gave in to me, and it is a very fulfilling thing to do.  

I started to wonder why it took me so long.  Why haven't I done this before? Why haven't I surrendered to me?

The more I submit to my wants and needs, the more I'm falling in love with myself. I cannot help but just feel mesmerized with myself.  What a character. What a personality.  I'm such all-emotional and all-sensitive about almost everything.  Even I might seem to look poised on the outside, in the inside I am in shambles.  At some point, I knew that I needed to control this rave of emotions, this whirlwind of energy.  At some point, I needed to tame down the currents of joy and bursts of anger.  Although it has became a part of me, I feel the need to hold it, to mold it and master it, so I could use it in my own benefit.  The feeling of being in control of myself, empowers me.  

From listening to D. Chopra, I've learned that we are co-creators of our world.  And indeed it is true. And my world now as I see it is colorful amidst all the pressures and stresses of life.  Things are what they are and we need to detach ourselves from these emotions, to be grounded and be rooted to who we really are. In that process we get to reorient ourselves to our being so we get clarity of it all.  It does pay to step back for awhile and just see things in a broader perspective.  That I have learned, that I will forever treasure.

I went out to watch "The Vow" thinking that I already knew the story just by watching the trailer.  Well, I was wrong.  Thus this post.  There was much to the story than what I thought I knew.  There were other plots that were intertwined to it.  A lot of emotions and A lot of really deep lines that are worth taking note of.  There were plenty of times that I cried, because somehow I could relate to it.   

I cried when Leo, played by Channing Tatum frustratingly told Paige, played by Rachel McAdams that he is also having a hard time with the situation that they have ; the time when Leo signed divorce papers because he already gave up on trying to make his wife fall in love with him; there was also a scene between Paige and her mother that I like.  They had this very sensitive argument on why they didn't tell her about his father's affair and why did her mother chose to stay with him despite that.  And her mother told her that she chose to stay for all the right things that he did for her.  She couldn't just leave her for one mistake.

Hmmm,  phewww... all the struggles of a couple.  It makes me appreciate that I'm single but it also makes me ponder what my married life will be like.  I hope I'll end up with a good man who doesn't want to leave me despite of my fun and sometimes eccentric nature.  

Right after I watched the trailer, I immediately thought that there's really something wrong with it.  I know that it has a lot of touchy scenes and really romantic ones too, but I really couldn't brush the fact that this girl couldn't seem to love her husband again.  I mean, if I was the girl and I just discovered that the person is my husband, of course I will program my mind that I'll be committed to that him and will love him no matter what.  But strangely that didn't happen.  What baffled me most was that the husband was no less than Channing Tatum, who is a complete hottie.  If I was her I would be ecstatic to know that this handsome and hot guy is my husband.  In fact I would marry him again if I want to.  

But yeah, my friend is asking me to go with her, so I figured whatever. I guess Channing Tatum is worth the movie ticket. :)

Valentine's Day is portrayed to be a very exciting day, well yes, for couples, but it's a dreaded day for singles like me.  I remembered one time, I hang out with girl friends at the beach on a valentines night.  It was cold then and my other friend who was supposed to bring the tent didn't make it, so we ended up trying to curl up to find some warmth.  Damn, that was a cold night indeed.  But yeah, it was a good idea gone bad.  So anyways I thought I would try to invite someone to go on a date with me, but really, am I that desperate? I think yes, to some degree because of the fact that I have even thought of that idea.  But yes, I guess I really should be saving my valentine's day for someone whom I love.  I mean, what's the use of dating a complete stranger on a valentine's day.  Well, yeah, for some people they do that, but I think I'd rather not.  So while surfing on youtube, I found this video about feeling gorgeous about oneself, and luckily enough, it gave me good ideas how I could just celebrate valentine's day by just loving myself.  And I thought, yeah, why not just do that instead. 

1. Wear Favorite Perfume

2. Wear that Cute Dress 

3. Light up some Scented Candles

4. Have a nice Bath

5. Slather on some Good amount of Lotion

6. Take a Lovely nap

7. Read a Good Book

8. Write on your Journal

9. Reconnect with your Dreams

10.Listen to Relaxing Music

11.Post on your Blog

12.Hang out with your Girl Friends

13.Watch an Uplifting Movie

14.Look at yourself in the Mirror for a Long Time, Study yourself

15.Reflect on Yourself, Hear out your Voice

16.Go back to your passions.

17.Rediscover your Childhood dreams; and Achieve it

18.Put make up on

19.Spend time with people who Genuinely care for you

20.Plan out your dreams

21.Have a nice Walk

22.Write yourself a Letter

23.Sing your Heart out

24.Dance Like there's No Tomorrow

25.Eat Good Food

I just came out from a breakup and I realized that I made it even harder for me because I had been digging my own wound rather than just help me heal it.  I watched romantic movies and listened to sad songs.  I still go back to old memories and still communicate with my ex who already has moved on.  It was hard, but now I learned from my mistakes.  I need to help myself and be kind to myself by giving myself time to heal and step back and just take it from a broader perspective rather than focusing on the pain.  

I thought that I could adjust everything for the guy and I could do everything for him, but really, it was disrespectful to me and to my dreams and aspirations in life.  I ignored me and focused on the relationship. It was so wrong.  At least I learned.

The thought of going vegetarian and embracing organic products have really enticed me for some time now.  I tried being vegetarian but somehow I haven't really acquired that tastebuds yet to fully dedicate myself to go vegan.  But using organic items are easier, I thought I'll start myself with that.  Organic products, in this case, beauty products aren't necessarily expensive.  Body shop has gone green but the prices are just not that attractive to me.  Good thing my sister introduced me to Human Nature.  It's locally made thus it's cheaper.  So far, it has gotten good reviews from her so I thought I might as well try it myself.  First product I bought is their Sunflower oil.  It has been said to minimize dark areas and stretchmarks in your body.  And seeing that it only cost P129, I bought it immediately.

Let's see if this thing works on me.